Is there anyone out there?
Not sure if anyone still reads this (or checks up for updates) – it’s been a while – but I thought it was worth a shot…
The reason why I so abruptly quit Double Salto is because, for many reasons that I don’t particularly wish to disclose, I have found that following the beautiful sport of gymnastics has been extremely triggering to my eating disorder. I wish it wasn’t so, but there ya have it: that’s the cold, hard truth.
During the past couple (almost) of months, I suffered from a mini-relapse after finally getting myself to a healthy weight…now trying to gain it again. It’s a pain in the ass, but you do what you gotta do.
However, I did miss blogging – a lot – so I started a recovery blog, which has been immensely helpful. If anyone is interested in following it at all (I’m assuming those that have been through similar situations), you can contact me through the IG message board. I’m debster.
I don’t think I’ll ever be back here. It’s just too much. I thought I could handle it, but I can’t, obviously. And right now, my health is so much more important.
I’ll always love gymnastics with all my heart.